It's been a while since I've made a blog entry. You know, school has been taking all my time. I jump from one project to the next without knowing when the chain will end. Actually, I can't say whether am happy or not right now. I guess am just ok. But don't be fooled because I know I have a great friend who never leaves me in the midst of trials.  I've been learning  much about myself and other people  around me, and discovering the truths had burdened me very much. Those things are so heavy that they have the potential to plunge you into chronic depression.  But praise be to God, the provider of joy, love, and peace who did not let me fall prey to my thoughts. He gently showed me that it is ok to be content with my current state while seeking diligently for the answer. Oh! What's the Question for which am seeking an answer?  Well, my questions are no different the the basic questions you've probably asked many times. Questions like: Why am I here at this place and at this time? What do people see when they look at me? (not that it matters much, but still important) Why have I met the people I know today and those I will meet during my lifetime? The purpose of relationships....... and much more. I haven't found the answer yet but I'm learning a lot. In my prayers I ask God "O give me wisdom and intelligence so I can understand." So I can understand His purpose for me and for the people He places on my path. I feel like I've been either  trying to help God solve some problems or  I've been  doing a lot of things without  asking Him. So i had to do a lot of confession and deep intropection. The neat thing is that He had already answered every questions that I will have ever asked in my lifetime in the Bible. The answers may not be what suites me best but they are Truth.  They may be hard  if not impossible to find if we look for them with the wrong spirit, but they are there. Questions for which an answer cannot be found are often what bother me the most. And believe me, there are a lot of them!!! But God is famous for revealing deep mysteries to the simple minded. And the attitude of a simple minded is what I've been convinced to adopt in my eveyday walk.

It is late in the evening; the night is young and promising. The Jazz Festival fills the atmosphere with music. Music that don't catch my attention more than the person am with. She is so pretty! We are walking along the river on the steps where many lovers are expressing themselves. The glittering lights from the Kentucky side make the water look multicolored. More beautiful than a rainbow since the patterns are so complex. Just with a little portion of your vast imagination you can make any image with the reflections from the surface of the calm water of the Ohio River. The temperature is just right for such a beautiful night. Everything is perfect and we are both aware of it. As I walk by her side on a lower step, I get a glimpse of what could happen to our friendship. Then the beauty of the night came right back before my eyes, and with a "not too loud voice" I shout "life is beautiful! Thank you God for giving me one!" I know I sound weird, but I need to express this joy so bad (i don't care what they say about me). After a nice short walk around the park, we decide not to attend the festival. We sit on the steps near that river and talk about all and nothing. We notice there is no stars in the sky, but once in while we find ourselves looking at the small water waves fromm the river that are coming toward us. The concrete floor where we sit is giving off all the heat it had stored during the hot day, but we are too comfortable to stand up. I tell her how I've missed talking to her, but she tells me my grades don't reflect that. I try to explain it but I suddenly think I don't need to because she was joking. I don't dare to talk about anything else even though I have so much to say. I wish I could know when is the right time to say something. U know what I mean? But I think being with her alone on such a beautiful night is enough so far. All this happened on a saturday night on the fourth of august 2007. This is one of the most precious moments of my life. Who was that girl? You don't need to know her; what you really have to know is that I really really like her. Any thoughts?